dream of californication

2005-09-07T18:15:00.000+08:00

my braces are killing me. bleh.

ari said my guitar sucks.

i mean. he said i can't play for nuts or something to that effect.

1. he can play well even if i do say so.
2. he is an asshole.
3. my playing does suck.
4. but i'm not going to admit it.
5. because i rock.
6. and he doesn't.
7. because he has never heard me play and has no right to say my playing sucks.
8. even if it does.
9. therefore he sucks.
10. therefore i'm going to say that his guitar AND his playing sucks.
11. sucker.

yeah. CHA-CHING.

my braces ARE FUCKING KILLING ME.

put a gun to your head pull the trigger and you're dead.

uhh yeah. i bought a pedal. distortion. i love it. but uhh i can't really play so =)

BUT i will practice and practice and uh. wo bu zhi dao bye.

i love budu and we went out on monday and got my om team pissed because i was supposed to meet them at jia kang's house. only i didn't know what time and went pedal shopping with kovan shoo paul and terrence so my om team got pissed HURRAY. terrence is a great ego deflator. paul is effing funny. you can see what he said at shoo's blog.

okay. stupid ronin i got try again =( i wonder who's that girl?

2005-08-21T18:39:00.000+08:00

i'm sleepy again. how many posts have i started like that?

and it occured (sp?) to me that i'm a terrible mean selfish stuck up weird person that would probably have no friends. because i speak before i think and i probably offend a lot of people. if i've ever offended anyone unintentionally i'm sorry.

and how come i've been feeling so depressed recently? is this turning into an angsty teen post? never mind, let me have my angsty post because i'm an angsty teen. i have uhh two friends. and i

ARGH I CANT THINK.

sorry.

sorry sorry sorry am i a very terrible person? i think i am.

yeah so my dad got me a creative zen 20g mp3 player. it needs a name.

mervyn. he's acting strange and it's probably something i said. again. i always say the stupidest things.
terrence. he's gonna teach me guitar.
my band. i have no idea.

i'm so sleepy i cant think.

all i know is that i'm sorry. i'm so so sorry. i don't know what for, or whom to, but i'm sorry.

2005-08-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

celebrations today were bs. nobody was really paying attention. the old folks were damn cute though. they were waving at us so cutely <3 i felt like hugging them. and they're so nice and appreciative. unlike us.

the guest speaker was quite incomprehendable. he kept talking about hiroshima and we were like "and that has to do with singapore because?"

the sec three dances coulda been better. oh well we can't complain. it's not like our class got in in the first place =( i think i screwed that up for us. bleh.

yeah so after that i went for lunch with julie. and then we went to heeren. it was boring. so she bought some ff stickers and a wallet pouch thing and then she went home. then i went for my appointment thing where my parents and i spent about one and a half hours sitting on the disgusting uncomfortable plastic chairs and about 3 minutes in the doctor's room. then we went home.

oh and have i mentioned my abominable unbearable fucking NECKACHE? i swear, if it doesn't go away soon i will DIE. it's been hurting since like forever. since this morning's celebrations to be exact.

and now i've got the stupid half-asleep half-awake feeling you get when you're sick. fucking flu bug is flying around like anything. i bet if you took a random sample of air there'll be a flu bug inside.

yeah well. i hope my neckache goes AWAY. ARGH. I AM GOING TO SMASH MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL BYEBYE.

2005-08-05T19:53:00.000+08:00

nobody tags anymore! ahh so sad.

omg i love if i die tomorrow! vince <33333333

I wake up to find myself
After all these years
And where all the time has gone
Still seems so unclear
Cause there's no one else
Since I found you
I know it's been so hard
You should know

If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can't remember
Have I said all I can say
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow

It brings out the worst in me
When you're not around
I missed the sound of your voice
The silence seems so loud
Cause there's no one else
Since I found you
I know it's been so hard
You should know

If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can't remember
Have I said, all I can say
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow

I spent all my life
Looking for our innocence
I've got nothing to lose
Nothing to prove
I won't make the same mistakes
Now I know
That everything will be okay
If I die tomorrow

If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can't remember
Have I said all I can say
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow
If I die tomorrow

i got my contacts! so fun. and i painted my surprised specs with black nail polish. apparently the frame was making me look permanently surprised. so i decided to paint it black in an attempt to save my facial expressions. i think it looks better now.

my mom bought me a new bag! <3 i'm putting patches and badges on it and it looks WICKED she rocks!

k uhh. nothing bye.

2005-08-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

okay vince has a hot voice. as in from motley crue.

cut me up another slice of your pie!

weebl and bob must love motley crue to little pie bits and pieces.

anyways, i'm a veh heavy volls voyce and a butterhead. so there. the rest can fuck off. whoever the rest is. those who aren't veh heavy volls voyce or butterheads i suppose.

yeah. i'm sick. as in, not that kinda pervy sick, as in sore throat sick. which is a big fat bummer because it makes me feel like i have a golf ball in my throat. i just realised that i dont know what tonsils are. is it that dangly thing there in the middle? or those two flappy things at the back, on either side?

and lozenges don't work unless you push them all the way back, like until you're nearly gonna swallow it. which is kinda dangerous. especially if you happen to be falling asleep in math, like i was. but hey i'm still alive (sorry, i can't help it)

okay i'm counting down the days to saturday, sunday, monday and then tuesday. oh glorious school-free days, how we worship thee!
saturday: jamming, mervyn, guitar lesson!
sunday: NOTHING!
monday: celebrations, brace appointment, BUDU <33
tuesday: O GLORIOUS SINGAPORE THANK YOU FOR THE HOLIDAY (andhappybirthday) JAMMING?

three more days! THREE MORE DAYS! THREE. MORE. DAYS!!! we can do it we can do it cmon!

where do bad folks go when they die?

2005-07-31T20:03:00.000+08:00

now it's generally rude to laugh at others' english (or attempt at xD) but honestly, who cares?

In a Bangkok temple:
"IT IS FORBIDDEN TO ENTER A WOMAN, EVEN
A FOREIGNER, IF DRESSED AS A MAN."

Cocktail lounge, Norway:
"LADIES ARE REQUESTED NOT TO HAVE
CHILDREN IN THE BAR."

Doctors office, Rome:
"SPECIALIST IN WOMEN AND OTHER
DISEASES.

Dry cleaners, Bangkok:
"DROP YOUR TROUSERS HERE FOR THE
BEST RESULTS.

In a Nairobi restaurant:
"CUSTOMERS WHO FIND OUR WAITRESSES
RUDE OUGHT TO SEE THE MANAGER."

On a poster at Kencom:
"ARE YOU AN ADULT THAT CANNOT READ? IF
SO, WE CAN HELP."

In a City restaurant:
"OPEN SEVEN DAYS A WEEK AND
WEEKENDS."

A sign seen on an automatic restroom hand dryer:
"DO NOT ACTIVATE WITH WET HANDS."

In a cemetery:
"PERSONS ARE PROHIBITED FROM PICKING
FLOWERS FROM ANY BUT THEIR OWN
GRAVES."

Tokyo hotel's rules and regulations:
"GUESTS ARE REQUESTED NOT TO SMOKE
OR DO OTHER DISGUSTING BEHAVIOURS IN
BED."

On the menu of a Swiss restaurant:
"OUR WINES LEAVE YOU NOTHING TO HOPE
FOR."

In a Tokyo bar:
"SPECIAL COCKTAILS FOR THE LADIES WITH
NUTS."

Hotel, Yugoslavia:
"THE FLATTENING OF UNDERWEAR WITH
PLEASURE IS THE JOB OF THE
CHAMBERMAID."

Hotel, Japan:
"YOU ARE INVITED TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF
THE CHAMBERMAID."

In the lobby of a Moscow hotel across from a
Russian Orthodox monastery:
"YOU ARE WELCOME TO VISIT THE
CEMETERY WHERE FAMOUS RUSSIAN AND
SOVIET COMPOSERS, ARTISTS, AND
WRITERS ARE BURIED DAILY EXCEPT
THURSDAY."

A sign posted in Germany's Black Forest:
"IT IS STRICTLY FORBIDDEN ON OUR BLACK
FOREST CAMPING SITE THAT PEOPLE OF
DIFFERENT SEX, FOR INSTANCE, MEN AND
WOMEN, LIVE TOGETHER IN ONE TENT
UNLESS THEY ARE MARRIED WITH EACH
OTHER FOR THIS PURPOSE."

Hotel, Zurich:
"BECAUSE OF THE IMPROPRIETY OF
ENTERTAINING GUESTS OF THE OPPOSITE
SEX IN THE BEDROOM, IT IS SUGGESTED
THAT THE LOBBY BE USED FOR THIS
PURPOSE." >

Advertisement for donkey rides, Thailand:
"WOULD YOU LIKE TO RIDE ON YOUR OWN
ASS?"

The box of a clockwork toy made in Hong Kong:
"GUARANTEED TO WORK THROUGHOUT ITS
USEFUL LIFE."

In a Swiss mountain inn:
"SPECIAL TODAY - NO ICE-CREAM."

Airline ticket office, Copenhagen:
"WE TAKE YOUR BAGS AND SEND THEM IN
ALL DIRECTIONS."

A laundry in Rome:
"LADIES, LEAVE YOUR CLOTHES HERE AND
SPEND THE AFTERNOON HAVING A GOOD
TIME."

and oh, the things you can find in cold storage!

whoever thought supermarkets and bio performance tasks could be such fun?

wild side!

2005-07-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

ooooh sha'ari got another cat! now he's got julian (the biggest and the fattest one), emma (the busybody one) and phoebe (the sweet little thing). they're all white and fluffy and they're SO FUCKING CUTE!!!!!!!!!! i just love animals. except insects.

i think my guitar's improving! and so is gay gan's bass! and shoo is already pro! so maybe, our band will be pro!

and i think maybe i was kinda mean to prav. well sorreeee =/ yes i meant that. and that wasnt supposed to be sarcastic.

and nadiah is head prefect! yeah baby yeah.

okay one day i'll maybe write a halfway decent song that i'll maybe post here. and i'll maybe hope that nobody will ever read it. but only maybe one day.

this could be your sick love song.

2005-07-17T17:28:00.000+08:00

ugh i am so annoyed.

so so annoyed.

baybeats was fun though. brandtson rocks! they're from ohio. salima and nicole cajoled me into letting them treat me as their personal barbie, and i ended up with lots of black gunk on my eyelids. and weird hair. nicole kept saying that i was hot though. what an ego xD

yeah too bad we only listen to two brandtson songs, then we had to leave.

never try to flag a taxi at pan pacific at 1150. there are NONE. okay maybe there are, but most are changing shifts and only go to weird places like pasir ris.

quiz thing.
LAST PERSON WHO

1. Slept in your bed
me

2. Saw you cry
sali? i dunno.

3. Made you cry
forgot

4. You shared a drink with
wan ting

5. Went to the movies with u
forgot. uhh, family?

6. Went to a mall with
aruna

7. Yelled at you
parents

8. Sent you an email
dunno hotmail spoilt

HAVE YOU EVER:

9. Said "I love you" and meant it
no

10. Gotten in a fight with your pet -
no?

11. Drank Alcohol
yes

12. Been to Hawaii -
no.

13. Been to Mexico
dunno. probably not.

14. Danced naked
O_O yes. in the shower.

15. Dreamed something really crazy and then it
happened the next day
actually yeah lol.

16. Wished you were the opposite sex
no but i wished i had a lower voice though.

17. Had an imaginary friend
no.

18. Gotten beaten up
no.

DO YOU:

19. Smoke
no.

20. Curse
yes

21. Sing well
unfortunately... no.

22. Sing in the shower
yes.

23. Talk to yourself
yes.

24. Play an instrument
yes.

25. Think you're a health freak
nope.

26. Get along with your parents
sometimes.

27. Get along with your siblings?
no.

OTHER:

28. Worst feeling in the world
betrayal

29. Future number of kids and their names
2. dunno and dunno

30. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
no

31. What's under your bed?
dust bunnies?

32. Favorite sport to watch
dunno.

33. Siblings
2

34. Location
my room

35. College Plans
dunno

36. Piercing / Tattoos
four piercings, i had 6 at one point. i want two tattoos min.

37. Music Player
hifi?

38. DVD player or VCR player
dvd

39. Pocket money
non existant

40. Laundry basket
chipmunk.

41. Mouth
braces.

EXTRA STUFF:

42. Have you done drugs?
cough syrup?

43. Who was your first best friend?
i forgot his name. when i was two and a half, in hong kong.

45. What clothes do you sleep in?
shirt and long pants and my brace

46. Where do you want to be married?
dunno

47. Who do you really hate?
disclosed

48. Do you drive?
no.

49. Do you have a job?
yeah i'm superman.

50. Do you like being around people?
sometimes and depends on who

STUFF:

51. Do you have a kind of person you always go
after?
dunno

52. Want something you don't have right now?
yes. FOOD. CHOCOLATE. MONEY.

53. Are you lonely right now?
quite

54. Song that's stuck in your head a lot
now its hollaback girl.

55. Do you want to be married?
ehh yes actually.

56. Do you want kids?
maybe...

FAVOURITE:

57. Band -
i dont know.

58. Color
black and red

59. Perfume or colonge
cologne turns me on.

60. Month
december

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:

61. Cried
no

62. Bought something
yeah food

63. Gotten Sick
no

64. Sang
yep

65. Told someone you loved them!
yeah! nicole!

2005-07-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

it got stolen!

oh well whatever.

this goes out to all those underaged idiots who think that drinking is the coolest thing on earth.

please stop trying to act like you're so mature. it's actually kinda stupid. and if you get drunk it's even stupider. not to mention that hangovers are the worst kind of headaches on earth, except for mabye those you get right before you die if you get like brain cancer or something.

yeah so stop it. it annoys people and isn't very good for you either. unless someone offers you alcohol and you think that they'll be offended if you dont accept (provided that you'll actually care if they get offended that is), don't drink. and certainly don't ask someone for a drink. unless it's your parents then i guess it's okay since they'll have more sense than give you too much, i think.

random thought, is all.

2005-07-06T19:59:00.000+08:00

hello!

top 10 songs in my iTunes
10. Velvet Revolver - Slither
9. Motley Crue - Kickstart My Heart
8. Muse - Plug In Baby
7. GnR - Paradise City
6. The Killers - Mr Brightside
5. Jason Mraz - The Remedy
4. Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
3. RHCP - Californication
2. Eagles - Hotel California
1. GnR - Sweet Child O' Mine

that was random =)

okay thanks to the stupid influence of shoo budu i'm starting to like slither ._. okay lah it's nice lah.

fall to pieces is nice too! oh yeah i found a nirvana patch at tampines interchange and i'm so in love with it i am going to buy it tomorrow i fucking SWEAR. wtf it's SO NICE. and it's only TWO BUCKS. and there are like lots of nirvana badges too.

okay i was supposed to go home with rachel (her mom always gives me lifts home after drama ends), but with nirvana badges and patches calling to me, no way!

it's one of those small temporary boothy things. i hope the badges and patches won't be gone by then! there was only one of each patch/badge so if its gone it wont come back!

yeah the french exchange students are here today. i shall curse the fact that i am not singaporean, and that moelc only allowed singaporeans to apply for the programme. but i shall not be jealous.

alright, dinner. ciaoz!

2005-07-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

i am such a loser >.>

yeah well, check this out.

pocket money a month- $205
phone bill last month- $60
owed to mom- $40
owed to friends- i can't remember, around $30 at least
owed to me- around $50

so this month i have around $150 to spend. and i already spend half of that. i have about $65 left. and it's only the fourth of july (independence day, but who cares.) for fuck's sake.

oh geez who the hell invented money? if i could i would invent a time machine and go back in time to bribe the guy into not inventing it.

you see? money again.

how sad has the world become. life and death depends on little bits of paper. this afternoon i bought a packet of tissue from an old lady near plaza singapura. her sign said, "30 cents", but i gave her a two dollar note and said in mandarin, "Aunty, i haven't any spare change." it's what i always do when i come across old ladies selling tissue packets.

i dont know why i said that, but i just think it was weird. i dunno. i just think it's so silly that people are practically dying for these little bits of paper with print on them. okay so maybe that's just shallow of me to think that, and i should probably look into the value of money and not just its appearance and physical properties, but hey, in the end they're just little bits of paper. people actually get sent to jail and in some cases, get capitally punished (or killed, simply put) for them.

yeah thats all. for my own amusement i'm going to paste a chunk of my convo with wanker here. it involves the sad state of my pocket money. read if you will, at your own risk, you have been warned. i am hopeless at managing money.

.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
i have like
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
-$50
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
i owe my friends, my school owes me, and my mom wouldn't give my half my pocket money because i've already used the other half
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
i seem to be awful at managing my money
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
it's like, one month i rack up huge debts and the next month i spend half the pocket money trying to repay them, and then i do it again because half my pocket money is gone
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
it's like a bloody vicious cycle
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
and it's not like i get very little pocket money
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
it's just that i eat too much and spend too much
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
and it's not like i buy stuff that're really expensive
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
its just that i buy lots of tiny little stuff that i don't notice and lose track of until my wallet is empty
.*~ el-3na ~*. unsound. [by the way i tried to say i'd be there] says:
am i killing you? i realised that i'm spamming

2005-06-30T14:56:00.000+08:00

YO. i rock. because i am shoo and not elena. elena does NOT rock.
okay i am elena. i think shoo rocks yes. but i think i rock too. but shoo rocks more.

okay i am going off byebye

2005-06-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

oh dear, i think i shall need therapy.

it's only one more day to the start of school, and i've barely started on my homework. okay this isn't a big deal, but it seems like everyone else who's in the same position as me are all rushing their heads off.

whereas i, the incredible slacker, isn't doing anything at all. or not much anyway. and i find that i don't even care. who cares if i don't finish my work? who cares if the teachers aren't happy? who cares if i fail all my exams? who cares if i get kicked out of raffles? not me.

see. isn't that just strange.

some guy said, "You can get in anywhere (as in, the universities) with a singaporean education."

well. i just realised that i don't really care whether i get into a good uni or not. i think life has lot more to it than just doing well. after all you wouldn't wanna spend your whole life working hard and earning shitloads of money, and at the end you realise that you never really got to enjoy much at all.

i mean. okay i'll give an example.

This guy works really hard in school. he's nice and is friendly with anyone and nobody really dislikes him much if at all, even if he is kinda quiet and introvert-ish. he mugs a lot, studies really hard and that kinda thing, and always gets good grades. and if you asked him to go out say, a week before the exams, he'd have turned you down for the sake of getting in a bit more of studying. so his social life began to suffer, and he became more and more of an outcast. anyways, so a levels are over, and his results were like whoa! so he got into his dream school, took his ideal courses, got like three ph.d's and married a uni classmate.

20 years down the road, he's almost 50, owner of a successful company, father of two kids (both seem to be going down the same path as the one he chose), rich as a king's ass. and one day, one of his children said, "Dad, when you were young, what did you do?"

He said, "I went to school."
And his kid asked, "But what did you DO in school?"
He said, "Well, we had tests and homework."
And still his kid persisted, "But, DAD... Didn't you DO anything? Like, friday nights at the cinema or something?"
He thought for a bit, and said slowly, "Actually... not really."
And his kid stared at him. "Then what did you do for fun?"
He blinked, not sure how to answer. "Well honey... it's like this... well."

And he couldn't answer. He tried to think of a time when he had fun, when he had been happy and relaxed, and when he didn't have to worry about his future or his career. And it was then that he realised that he had never really had a childhood. Sure he was successful, sure he was rich, sure he had a big house, sure he had three cars. But he wasn't happy, and only then did he realise that he never truly was.

and i know that this doesn't apply to a lot of successful people and stuff, but yeah. i mean, what's the use of having a degree if you weren't happy having it?

i dunno, i guess academics was never really one of my priorities. well now that's done, i gotta go clean out my guinea pig's cage, shower, brush my teeth, and come back to finish up my social studies essay. what irony.

a denial.

2005-06-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

hi.

koko krunch is love!

i'm crossing my eyes and mosquitoes are bombarding me.

if you stay out too late clubbing-

standing on the pavement
waiting for the bus
i thought that it'd be here
by now

there's nothing but the rain
no taxis on the road
it's past midnight but i can't go home

isn't any bus arriving
won't a taxi come take me home
it's already past midnight
trying to figure out the bus guide
won't some stranger, any one with a car, appear soon
i don't know who you are, but i... i'm with you
i'm with you

i'm looking for a place
i'm searching for a face
can anybody here take me home
there're no more buses tonight
and the taxis are somewhere else
and no one likes to sleep outside

i give up.

2005-06-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

i'm a soldier
these shoulders hold up so much they won't budge
i'll never fall or fold up

i'm a soldier
even if my collarbones crush or crumble
i will never stumble

i think eminem sounds sexy. i dunno.

anyway i think 50 cent is WEIRD. there's something about him asking LINDSAY LOHAN's agent for her number recently, on which she commented, "Black men like me." and "Where's eminem?" (Damn, girl, you're asking who? You're not even halfway there. If he ever ever likes you i will eat my socks. And by the way, he's WHITE.) come to think of it, it's always lindsay lohan. figures somehow doesn't it. and i wish she'd stick to acting. i only ever heard ONE of her songs, and that's more than enough of lindsay lohan's singing that i need to hear for the whole of this lifetime. what happened to the girl in parent trap man? or even mean girls? more OBVIOUSLY though, what's with the implants? she's only like what, 19? gee. i only hope she doesn't get a rep like paris hilton.

and 50. geez. he's a pimp, and i'm your mom. what's so nice about going everywhere half naked with oil all over unless you're planning to have sex? oh i won't even go there but i bet if he's gonna have sex we know who he wants under him. (hint: it's not michael jackson, or george bush) yeah well i won't say anymore, there might actually be 50 cent fans out there. yep, amazing isn't it? well what can i say, weird things happen. okay okay i'll stop.

but yeah i was like WTF when i heard about that.

2005-06-21T16:03:00.000+08:00

by request of shoo.

without looking at the questions, list 20 friends (or people)

1. shoo
2. justin (??)
3. derder
4. prav
5. yy
6. natalie
7. nicole
8. karen
9. jiakang
10. aruna
11. levan (??)
12. anthony kiedis
13. hurwitz
14. sherry
15. CHRISTIAN BALE
16. sha'ari
17. josh toh (????)
18. nicola
19. joan
20. my mom

now for the questions.
1. is #9 male or female? female
2. would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? LOL! NO!
3. how about #18 and #4? LOL NO!!!
4. what grade is #17 in? sec 3
5. when was the last time you talked to #12? never?

6. what is #6's favourite band? dunno, some stupid chinese band
7. does #1 have any siblings? yeah brother
8. would you ever date #3? ...
9. would you ever date #7? LOL NICOLE, hell yeah! xD
10. is #16 single? nope, he's happily engaged.
11. what's #15's last name? bale!
12. what's #10's middle name? don't have?
13. what's #5's favourite thing to do? LOL TOUCH PRAV. or my brace.

14. is #13 hot? uhhhh... >.>
15. would #14 and #19 make a good couple? ... EW NO.
16. what school does #20 go to? ... o.O
17. tell me a random fact about #11: he's an albino
18. and #1: SUCK MAH KISS!
19. and #4: all the while my fortune faded (it's playing now!)
20. have you ever had a crush on #15? HELL YEAH! HE ROCKS!
21. where does #9 live? pebble bay!
22. what's #3's favourite colour? white.
23. would you make out with #14? EW NO!
24. are #5 & #6 best friends? haha no.
25. does #7 like #2? o.O they dont even know each other.
26. does #8 like #19? er friends?

27. how did you meet #2? gig!
28. how did you meet #18? OM!
29. does #10 have any pets? dog.
30. is #12 older than you? waaaaaay older.
31. is #17 the hottest person alive, or what? what.

2005-06-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

ronin was awesome yesterday!

there were moshers >.> poor shana had to escape. i think she went home, cuz we didn't see her after that.

the security guards had to stand in front to make a human barrier xD

pepper: cut the barrier!
emcee: cut the barrier?
pepper: yeah!
emcee: well i can't cut it, but if you pull it... k i'm not saying anything. the manager won't be too happy though.

(security guards glare at her and swarm to the front of the crowd)

so shana, sharon, salima, sabrina and sherry were all there. (whoa, what's with the s names?) so i was the only girl whose name starts with anything other than e. visa and hurwitz went too. hurwitz and sabrina were so boring; they just stood there and bobbed their heads a bit and worried about mud and stuff. sherry was barefoot.

so ronin did do what thou wilt, then crazy son, money, take it off, hail to the god of rock n roll, and black maria. i can't remember what else. guys (and one girl) were moshing like crazy. everybody else (less crazy people like us) was jumping. and if that doesn't give a good enough idea of what it was like at the gig, then this would: when sali and i first arrived from the 212 barbecue at ecp, the ground was solid soil. but about one song and lots of jumping (and moshing) later, the ground became a little soft. and at the end, our pants and shoes (and feet in sherry's case) were totally splattered with mud. i suppose jumping too hard softens soil. plus the soil was already a bit wet since it rained friday.

too bad we didn't go for supper afterwards, it woulda been fun.

the way you move it, you make my peepee go doing doing doing!

2005-06-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

i haven't started on homework at all except to read the sources for the sbq's for social studies. should start soon, hmm.

so we were making om props yesterday. well apparently we were supposed to perform for open house. dammit why why WHY! WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO US! =( =( =( /drama

open house is such a drag.

OMFG SHIT I BIT ALUMINIUM FOIL OFF MY TOBLERONE.
k it's gone now.

you know (generic you, because i doubt anybody actually reads my blog ._.) it's not fair how some people just have this... WAY with words. it's like whatever they write is just so LITERARY and NICE and stuff. and then they waste it on writing stupid ego shit so everyone will worship them. and meanwhile poor people like me can't even write half decent un-boring intellectual whatchamacallit, FOOD FOR THOUGHT, so when people read what i CAN write, they think like "Who needs to know?". it's not even like i don't try. i think and think of nice topics to write about, but somehow when i settle on one, what i wanna write just all gets stuck before it can reach my fingertips.

so, i end up writing stupid boring shit like THIS.

=( sad isn't it.

you (generic) know, if you (generic) can write really well, you (i will not bother this time) shouldn't write useless ego stuff that makes people go "What a waste of talent!" and go like =( because whaddya know, you (ditto) might actually get something done.

i am the eggman!

2005-06-11T04:00:00.000+08:00

maybe we just pissed sali off. oops. sorry sali.

2005-06-11T03:29:00.000+08:00

still pissed.

bah.

white america
little eric looks just like this
white america
erica loves my shit
i go to TRL look how many hugs i get

nice soothing music <333

*tries to think of nice interesting topic*

monkeys?

never mind i can't think at 3.32am.

why hello.

so skip to your lou while i do what i do best
you aint even impressed no more
you're used to it
flows too wet

oh my god why am i fucking quoting eminem lyrics? i must be delusional... or crazy or whatfuckingever.

must be a circus in OH MY GOD ELENA SHUT UP!

lets shut the shit down on these clowns ELENA IS A CLOWN.

people steppin over people just to rush to the set OKAY ELENA YOU SUCK NOW STFU.

yes ma'am.

2005-06-11T03:04:00.000+08:00

okay.

if you feel obligated to read my blog even though you're totally sick of it, here's some news:

YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ MY BLOG!!!11!! :O :O :O
OMG!!!

yes. it's not obligatory. so if you don't like it, don't read it. yeah, so i gave you the address, i told you to tag, blah blah blah.

well newsflash: you DON'T have to read this! nuh-uh!

so yeah. toodles.

btw, i hate xiaxue >.> random fact.

I AM PISSED FOR NO REASON NUH UH. okay fine maybe there's a reason but NEVER MIND. oooh someone's in love with OH WAIT CLASSIFIED INFO. bah fuck off.

2005-06-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

sweet dreams are made of these
who am i to disagree

so here i am, parentless until sunday. yep, my parents are in hong kong. and i'm stuck here at home with my two brothers.

it's tough trying to wrench the laptop from them. but i did it in the end though yay. so here i am, blogging about nothing.

today is SO boring. my mom left at around 2, same time i left for guitar. dad left yesterday. he's a friggin liar. he said he'd return my handphone yesterday (he borrowed it. long story.) but he brought it with him to hong kong and now i'm handphoneless until sunday.

so my dad's going back to do the paperwork and stuff for my grandma, and to put her ashes in the something gorium something i dunno. my mom's gone to get a new passport/ic.

i wanna go back too! i kinda miss hong kong oh well.

yeah so i bought a new skirt, all shauna's fault. it cost me twenty fucking nine ninety. what a waste of money, since i can't see me in a skirt anytime in the near future.

and sha'ari gave me bubble gum <3 did theory today. oh sheesh i hate theory to bits.

when are we going jamming? and am i supposed to stay over at aruna's house? and i haven't started on any ANY HOMEWORK AT ALL.

okay i'm done ranting so i'm going to go away and just sit around and do nothing okay? okay. bye bye.

2005-06-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

yesterday= fun

went to harbour front mrt at 11am to meet karen so we could go to visit nicole at sentosa (her bloodyrich family is staying at the sentosa resort and spa) but she was ONE HOUR LATE YAY! haha so after that we took the shuttle and karen kept calling me stupid because i wore jeans =( but nvm! so we went and took the shuttle bus to sentosa, then we bought our tickets (THREE DOLLARS!) and took another bus to the resort. nicole was waiting in the lobby aw how shweet. and then they made me change into a white shirt =( AND WE HAD YOGHURT.

and then we took a bus to palawan beach! and then we walked to siloso beach! and we wrote "INDONESIAN SAND" all over the sand (and yes, for those twits who didn't know, sentosa's beaches are artificial and the sand is imported from indonesia), and started drawing buddhas and fishes! we drew thirty buddhas. there was this group of people burying a guy and putting sand tits on him. sexy.

then karen lost her lipsmacker and she was very sad because her sis gave it to her. in the end she found the cap, but not the lipsmacker.

then we went to the southernmost point of continental asia. whatever that is. and built castles. i totally ripped off this little girl's idea (building a moat).

and then we buried nicole's slippers. karen said the sand had a nice texture. yeah it was kinda bouncy. nicole: "Water-logged". (sand: water logged = water: saturated?)

anyways they put sand in the fold at the bottom of my jeans (i fold them because they are too long) and i ended up with ankle weights HURRAY.

so then it got late and we went back to nicole's room. the key is screwy! so we went back to the lobby to fix it and voila. i washed my jeans while i was still wearing them. karen wrung them for me and nicole blow dried them with the hand dryer xD

then nicole went to join her family for dinner and karen went home. i went to orchard cuz i was supposed to meet pagey michy and sali at far east at 8.45. it was around like 7. so i walked around far east a bit, then settled down to read. then sali came early cuz i was feeling lonely, so we went around a bit and i bought new jeans. they're bellbottoms. i'd wanted baggy, but they didnt have my size.

then pagey and michy arrived at 8.45. we wanted to spray paint the wall behind sakae sushi and gelaré but apparently we werent allowed to spray until after 10 lest we disturb the shops so we sat around gelaré until ten. we shared waffles, and i bought a wrap and fries from long john's. then finally it was 10. we sprayed 212sexy (the perfume brand) and wrote all the 212 names on it. and pagey and i did 313, and michy and sali did 314. fun <3

yeah then we went home.

=end=

my plug in baby
crucifies my enemies

2005-06-06T17:05:00.000+08:00

so divine hell of an elevator
all the while my fortune faded
never mind the consequences of the crime
this time my fortune faded

blading was fun. but tiring. shoulda rented a bike like der der, hurwitz and leyou. MY GOD LEYOU LOOKS SO DIFFERENT! he used to be kinda plump-ish, with funny hair and weird specs, and no fashion sense at all. now he's like tall, skinny, with DYED HAIR and cool specs and he was wearing a black shirt with jeans. i didnt believe it was leyou at first.

der der was wearing white again. sali was wearing blue and black again. i was wearing- never mind.

so sali is better at blading than i am I HATE YOU KATAK. but i'm better at the weird circle thing *pfffft!* lol. we went to bedok jetty and i fell down like FIVE TIMES there. sali didn't fall. but i managed to do the circle thing in the end. so there. der der is pro at biking. i am as lousy as usual.

leyou is dao and hurwitz is horny I DONT CARE I THINK SO and salima is pro at blading. so there was this stay on track campaign where we were supposed to keep to the designated tracks and there was this weird marquee thing where they were giving out free drinks/pens/balloons and sali, derder and i all took a balloon each. but in the end der der and i both lost ours in coffee bean anyways.

so then we went to derder's house, again. i think his mom was pissed =/ and then they played xbox. sali and i just lied around doing nothing. hurwitz was horny YES HE WAS. okay fine maybe not.

and thennnn we decided to go home at like 8.15. sali was supposed to be home by 6 anyways. yeah.

and when i got home i decided that the third hole in my left ear was really screwed so i decided to let it close. so now i got four holes and a half holes yay.

2005-06-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA DOESNT THIS ROCK?

Untitled

the night falls in a heavy, suffocating cloak, cold and alone are we.
the light for which you sacrifice yourself
flares once, then dies,
smothered by the all-encompassing dark.
all hope must surely perish.

your heart desires no more.
how could you fail to believe?
shadows surround us, crying,
we have lost our light.

make your own -here-

2005-06-01T12:25:00.000+08:00

filming yesterday! no more! yay!

kay uh yes. kay.

*emily* rocks! >.> xD

2005-05-30T01:08:00.000+08:00

stolen off sali

01. When I was younger, I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days [i don't watch at all.]
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping [i just don't get it much.]
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses [glasses!]
07. I love to play video games
08. I have tried marijuana
09. I have watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have trouble sleeping
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year [and more.]
17. I have a hobby
18. I have been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I have broken a bone/bones before.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now
27. I love sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I HAD long hair [I DID ON FRIDAY]
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I have a body part pierced other than my ears. [or, i used to]
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is/was hot
45. I have cheated on a Sig. O. in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single [and damn pleased with that.]
50. I'm hot
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants
53. I love to shop [i just have no money to]
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm addicted to LJ
58. I don't hate anyone, I dislike them
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have more than 3 piercings
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I have been outside of my country
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life [not sure anyways]
71. I want to have children in the future [but im scared to; im kinda irresponsible]
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I have called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I'm very shy around people [depends on who.]
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs at a party
84. I have made a move on a friend's Sig. O. in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments to be on LiveJournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy country music
89. I would die for my best friend
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment
100. I would trade my life with someone else at this moment

2005-05-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

ahh omg today was SO FUN.

1. my hair totally rocked. it was actually flat. well lol actually thats cuz it was wet. and to think i spent so much gel+mousse+wax on it when i could just stand in the rain.

2. der der's hair totally rocked. it was actually spiky. congratz xD well lol actually that's cuz it was wet. hmm it wasn't really THAT spiky but well it was only rainwater.

3. it's fun to blade when it's raining.

4. der der's grandma is really nice.

5. so are the three people i went blading with today aka sali derder reuben.

k. end of short entry. long entry ahead:

anyways so sali and i were supposed to meet at a park near her house then meet der der at the ecp coffee bean at 10. but both of us had stuff (i overslept and her mom dragged her to some religious thing) so we decided to meet at like 12 or something. so i got to the park and bladed around waiting. then sali smsed me and said like she was on her way to ecp or something so i was like O_O then we started catfighting (hisssss meowrrrr) while i bladed off to ecp myself. then i decided to ask reuben to come too!

so then i smsed der der and told him that sali was on her way. then it turned out that sali went to the park after all. so she had to like walk all the way to ecp. bleh sorry sali >.>

then after that der der arrived, then i arrived, then sali arrived and then reuben arrived and sali and i held on to der der's bike and he went kinda fast but not really fast cuz we were holding on and stuff and blahblah. then we sat down near the pond, where sali forced reuben to show her how to blade backwards. he bladed behind some bushes and disappeared. then der der took this weird ball thing out of the pond and it turned out to be this water-logged half rotten pong pong fruit. then that idiot KICKED IT. and it totally exploded all over his shoe lmfao xD then it started raining >< so we went under this shelter and der der kept shivering poor guy. the shelter dint really help, cuz the wind was uberly strong and it kept blowing the rain in anyways.

so after a while the rain got lighter, and a few people were starting to come out so we decided to go out too. boy was that ever a mistake. the rain started getting really heavy and all of us got totally soaked. so we decided to go to mc's to dry off. which we did. then reuben sali and i started wringing our shirts. mine was kinda short so i ended up indecent exposing. ohwell. not like theres anything to see anyways.

and then it was time for sali to return the blades she rented so we went back to the shop. then guess what? it started raining AGAIN, surprise surprise. so derder reuben and i all ran (well, cycled and bladed) for shelter. leaving sali stranded at the shop. lol but she made it under the shelter in the end anyways. after a long while the rain FINALLY stopped. and then we decided to go to der der's house! but then sali had to leave so i sent her off. then i went back up to der der's house where he was playing xbox with reuben bah boring. yeah so they played xbox and i fiddled with derder's guitar. then he started fiddling with it except he was much pro-er.

so then after like two hours reuben and i decided to cab to kembangan. then we went home. yeah.

-FIN-

2005-05-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

I DONT WANNA MOOOOVE.

my parents want us to move to novena to "better facilitate our transportation" or whatever. yeah right. why can't they just buy a damned car? i mean novena? there are like NO beaches NO parks NO swimming pools NO wet markets NO hdbs and NO friendly neighbours.

its gonna be like 5 bus stops from rgs. which means i'll have to take public transport to school every morning. which means ARGH NO WAY.

though there ARE pros. or advantages or whatever. they're planning to renovate the whole house so they're gonna like tear down the walls and rebuild them so i get to choose what shape i want my room to be. i plan on getting lava lamps and a nice shaggy carpet and lights in my wall and a window seat and an inbuilt/indented area for my bed and a walk-in closet. so far my parents are okay with it. oh, and i want a hanging chair. those kind that you hang from the ceiling.

that's if we move. i sincerely hope we don't. heck i dont even mind keeping my shitty furniture if we dont have to move.

2005-05-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

i know what i want for my birthday! i want the hi fi stereo thing from best. it's around $168.

today budu and i were walking around ps. we ate noodle omelettes and bacon and egg tako stuff. bought a blue blueberry drink which tasted like plum.

i needa pee >.>

she wants to go home
but nobody's home

2005-05-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

WAIT WHAAAAAAAAT LP BROKE UP???????????????? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

2005-05-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

i decided to like simple plan.

psl carn was fun. too bad we missed devils consignment. apparently they were really good and they did sweet child o mine.

lmfao then we had a corn eating competition! think it sounds easy? well it's not. the corn tasted like crap. and i mean crap. this guy hsuan te won (he finished it in 76 seconds) prav ate three cups ._. i ate three cups too. then i ate three bloody chicken wings. before, during and after that i ate a total of five sticks of cotton candy. plus the random bits that get stuck on the sides of the machine.

w00t.

2005-05-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

and i can't stand the pain
and i can't make it go away
now i can't stand the pain

how could this happen to me

untitled.

2005-05-13T20:40:00.000+08:00

fuck off, mosquitoes.

16.13 for 2.4. i coulda done so much better but whatever. prav was really motivative. i had a stitch at both sides from the start. and a headache.

i still miss my grandma.

2005-05-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

my grandma got cremated today.

i put the all the cards that we had ever made for her (that i could find) in her coffin. birthday cards and stuff.

i can't believe my grandma's just gone like that. i mean, she was okay at 3.30 am and then she wasn't when i woke up, and there were strange people (coroners or whatever) in my room and shit.

cremation is a painful thing to watch.

my dad cried, then my mom cried.

and i was thinking, this is wrong. there should be people here, at my grandma's funeral. relatives. friends, whatever. people other than us. being immigrants sucks.

but anyway. my grandma didn't look like her. the embalmers or whatever suck.

shit everything sucks right now.

2.4 is tomorrow. fuck that.

goodnight.

2005-05-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

my grandma died. on tuesday morning. she's getting cremated tomorrow.

i'm going to miss her a lot. i remember she used to bring me to this old people thing where they meet like once a week. and she always brought me to the playground outside that place, and there was this really really long and high slide.

how she brought me to the market and the char siew guy always gave me char siew for free. and once he gave me sweets because it was chinese new year.

how she always used to tell these stories at night, before we went to sleep. i can still remember the stories. well, most of them... there was this long one about a prince saving this princess, then there was a short one about a tortoise and a shark.

how she would pat our butts until we fell asleep.

how once, when i was really young, when she went to get her passport done, i started crying because i couldn't find her at home.

how she used to piggyback me in the lift so i could press the buttons.

and i remember the things she'd bought for me, the sailormoon sticker card thing, the gigantic white gold earrings which i so desperately wanted since i got my ears pierced, the toblerone wallet which i lost on the bus one day...

i remember how we would laugh at the toblerone commercials, where the woman would open her mouth really big and i would try to imitate her.

i remember the things i used to make for her, the cards for her birthday, the weird pyramid origami, and once i gave her a bouncy rubber ball thing out of my bouncy rubber ball collection. she always kept that one in her purse.

i remember where she sat back in hong kong, at the dining table.

i remember how we would watch the cantonese soaps on tv together back in hong kong.

how i used to share a bed with her in hong kong.

i'm going to miss her so much.

Reb - The impured says:
u know, the most painful thing is not to die from the world, it's to be forgotten

okay maybe the english is a little screwed, but it makes a lot of sense.

i'll remember my grandma forever and ever and ever and i'll always love her.

2005-05-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

2005-05-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

here's a llama there's a llama.

2005-05-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

im screwed (up) :(

2005-05-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

isn't francis guy a pretty name?

2005-05-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

meh o.O

2005-05-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

eeee flooble is weird.

2005-04-30T19:31:00.000+08:00

I am worth $2,105,576.00 on HumanForSale.com!!!!!

i woulda gotten more, but i think the fact that i'm so short makes me less valuable. oh, and the fact that i'm kinda uh, flat.

Your Birthdate: July 2

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.
The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.

You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.
You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-04-30T15:55:00.000+08:00

incredible

>>harry potter sims<<

check out the "Timeturner" screenshots! especially those for sirius and remus lupin! w00t

2005-04-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

eoi's coming week! fuck i still don't know the schedule and i HAVENT MUGGED AT ALL. i am so screwed, unless i start mugging in like an hour.

2005-04-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

[edit] i found this post disgusting distracting and annoying so i deleted it =) in case anyone is wondering, it was a quiz thingy.

2005-04-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

colorado?

confused?

confounded?

c... c... carrot.

2005-04-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

The Master said, "Elena is not going to Colorado."

2005-04-25T01:53:00.000+08:00

oh yeah i forgot we got gold with honours for elds.

only 6 schools out of 101 got that for drama and both rgs and ri got gold with honours =) very nice.

crashing down of hollow years

2005-04-24T15:20:00.000+08:00

w00t new piercing.

I HATE IT WHEN MY HEART GOES WHOOOOOSH AND ALL THE AIR COMES OUT.
AND I HATE IT WHEN I TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND I CANT LET IT OUT.

._________________________________________________________________.

maybe if you get pissed too many times you can't get unpissed. and not pissed as in drunk pissed.

first born unicorn
hard core soft porn...

2005-04-22T12:26:00.000+08:00

12.32 pm in school.

nicola is being a swot. we all have a gigantic crush on her.

hot cross buns, hot cross buns.
see how fast they run, see how fast they run.
so tall so smart i drink grow
delicious creamy grow grow grow
hot cross buns, hot cross buns.

21.39 h. three msn chat windows.

i am very very hungry. didn't have dinner. should i sneak out later and get something from 7/11?

2005-04-18T19:51:00.000+08:00

i hate school.

2005-04-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

DAMMIT we lost to acs!

we beat them at long term problem, but they beat us for spontaneous.

OMG I AM SO PISSED. fuck acs! and they were a sec four team!

omg wasted.

2005-04-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

bored. om is on saturday!

spontaneous is on friday!

i never want it to end.

2005-04-10T18:51:00.000+08:00

we just felt tremors. our plate tectonics are really screwed. i think it's going to spread...

2005-04-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

I am 46% Asshole/Bitch.

I may think I am an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is I am a good person at heart. Yeah sure, I can have a mean streak in me, but most of the people I meet like me.

Take the
Asshole/Bitch Test
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2005-04-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

this is the first time in my time at rgs that i'm going to admit to being stressed.

_haven't completed a lot of chinese essay things.
_haven't sent prav the social studies group stuff.
_our om is very screwed.
_i cannot understand what the bloody fuck the teachers are talking about.
_i keep falling asleep in class, which explains the abovementioned point.
_drama is getting on my nerves.
_i have absolutely no time for guitar.
_procrastination.

wow talk about faulty (majorpun. faulty-lousy, faulty-my fault. cue: groan.)

and i have no fuckin idea what the hell i'm talking about because i'm currently in the act of falling asleep and can't be bothered to read what i've written and make head or tail of it. it's only 12am. i shall go do the social studies group research plus individual essay performance task so i can send it to prav and alison. yeah okay.

oh how screwed am i? no, don't answer that.

2005-04-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/sports/story/0,4136,85810,00.html

oh look yijing's made the news!

2005-03-29T21:17:00.000+08:00

piggy died.

when i woke up this morning, my mom came into my room and said, "Piggy's dead." i was like wtf? bullshit man... then she said that piggy's legs were all sticking out and stuff and that yeah it died. so i went out and looked at piggy and it really was dead. guinea was just walking around looking lost. then my mom put piggy in a plastic bag and tied it up. then i went to school.

and when i came back, piggy was still tied up in the plastic bag. so i got really pissed and got out the yellow pages and called the first pet crematorium i found. and i asked about it and stuff and the cost of cremating piggy was 150. it sounded pretty okay to me so i confirmed it. then my mom asked me how much it was and when i told her she said that it was too expensive and that the other crematoriums all just told her to tied up the plastic bag throw piggy down the rubbish chute. then she called the crematorium back and cancelled it. then i got so pissed that i threw the bottle of fizzy drink that i was holding onto the floor. which wasn't very smart because it exploded all over the place and i had to clean it up. it sounds childish and immature now but i seriously couldn't think what else to do at the moment. fuck, i couldn't think at all.

gahh.

2005-03-25T12:09:00.000+08:00

i like the lyrics.

A Gothic Romance - Cradle of Filth

Evening minuetto in a castle by the sea
A jewel more radiant than the moon
Lowered Her mask to me
The sublimest creature the Gods, full of fire
Would marvel at making their Queen
Infusing the air with Her fragrant desire
And my heart reeled with grave poetry ...

From grace I fell in love with Her
Scent and feline lure
And jade woodland eyes that ushered in the impurest
Erotic, laden fantasies amid this warm Autumn night
She lulled me away from the rich masquerade
And together we clung in the bloodletting moonlight
Pearled luna, what spell didst thou cast on me?
Her icy kiss fervoured my neck
Like whispering waves 'pon Acheron's beach
In a whirl of sweet voices and statues
That phantomed the dying trees
This debauched seductress in black, took me ...

In a pale azured dawn like Ligeia reborn
I tore free of my sleep-sepulchre
On the sea misted lawn where stone figures, forlorn
Lamented the spectre of Her
Bewildered and weak, yet with passion replete
I hungered for past overtures
The curse of unrest and her ardent caress
Came much more than my soul could endure ...

I, at once, endeavoured to see Her again
Stirring from midnight's inertia
Knowing not even her name
On a thin precipice over carnal abyss
I danced like a blind acolyte
Drunk on red wine, her dead lips on mine
Suffused with the perfume of night

For hours I scoured the surrounding grounds
In vain that we might meet
When storm clouds broke, ashened, fatigued
I sought refuge in a cemetery

Sleep, usher dreams
Taint to nightmares from a sunless nether

Mistress of the dark
I now know what thou art

Screams haunt my sleep
Dragged from nightmares thou hast wed together

Lamia and Lemures
Spawned thee leche
To snare my flesh

Portrait of the Dead Countess
Deep stained pain that I had dreamt
Flaunted demise, life's punishment
Leaving little strength to seal this wretched tomb ...

But poised nectar within my stirs
Up feverous desire and morbid purpose to search
Through cobwebbed drapery to where she swoons
Goddess of the graveyard, of the tempest and moon
In flawless fatal beauty her very visage compels
Glimpses of a heaven where ghost companies fell
To mourning the loss of god in blackest velvet
Enrobed in their downfall like a swift silhouette

Fleeting, enshadowed
Thou art privy to my sin
Secrets dead, wouldst thou inflict
The cruel daylights upon my skin?
Dost thou not want to worship me
With crimson sacrifice
So my cunt may twitch against thy kiss
And weep with new-found life?

Red roses for the Devil's Whore ...

Dark angels taste my tears
And whisper haunting requiems
Softly to mine ear
Need-fires have lured abominations here ...

Nocturnal pulse
My veins spill forth their waters
Rent by lips I cherish most
Awash on her perfidious shores
Where drowning umbra o'er the stars
Ebon's graves where lovers whore
Like Seraphim and Nahemah

Pluck out mine eyes, hasten, attest
Blind reason against thee, Enchantress
For I must know, art thou not death?
My heart echoes bloodless and incensed ...

Doth temptation prowl night in vulvic revelry
Did not the Queen of Heaven come as Devil to me?
On that fatal Hallow's Eve when we fled company
As the music swept around us in the crisp, fated leaves
Under horned Diana where her bloodline was sewn
In a graveyard of Angels rent in cool marbled stone
I am grieving the loss of life in sombre velvet
Enrobed in Death's shadow like a swifter
silhouette ...

2005-03-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

another ear piercing! yay. one down three to go.

2005-03-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

You Are 20% Extrovert, 80% Introvert

You are quite reserved
You aren't afraid of social situations...
But you very much prefer to go it alone
And why not? You're your own best friend!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

2005-03-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

HOW TO GET TO JOAN'S HOUSE IN 126 STEPS AND 4 HOURS

1. Wake up Very Early - 8.30 will do.
2. Get ready to leave by 9
3. Call Joan to ask whether to cross the road outside her mrt station.
4. Be informed by Stupid Automated Thing that Joan had changed her phone number (a little quick, considering that she only gave it to you the night before o.O)
5. Call new number.
6. Hear busy tone.
7. Leave the house at 9.30 anyway - without a handphone (because it doesn't work anyway)
8. Miss the bus, as usual.
9. Board next bus.
10. Start reading Chick Lit.
11. Alight at Tampines Interchange.
12. Miss train, as usual.
13. Board next train.
14. Resume Chick Lit.
15. Transfer train at City Hall.
16. Have a Smelly Muddy Construction Worker sit next to you in the two seater.
17. Get off train at Ang Mo Kio.
18. Crawl into taxi.
19. Politely request to be brought to Green Meadows.
20. Get out of taxi because driver has no idea where that is and you can't seem to find the street address.
21. Take a chance and don't cross the road.
22. Walk to bus stop.
23. Read route map - but do NOT try to understand it.
24. Miss bus 138.
25. Resume Chick Lit.
26. See bus 169.
27. Board bus 169.
28. Resume Chick Lit.
29. Finish Chick Lit nearly one hour later.
30. Wonder where the hell you are.
31. Realise that your watch has stopped.
32. Remember that 169 goes in a loop so you'll probably end up at Joan's house anyway.
33. Pass by Yishun MRT.
34. Decide to alight.
35. Alight.
36. See supermarket.
37. Enter.
38. Buy Crap - suggestions are Chicken Munchies and Oreos with Double Cream.
39. Enter MRT station.
40. Open and start eating.
41. Read route map.
42. Note to self that Yishun MRT is only 3 stops away from Ang Mo Kio yet it had taken more than an hour for you to get from Ang Mo Kio to Yishun.
43. Get in Very Crowded Train.
44. Arrive at Ang Mo Kio for the second time, in 5 minutes.
45. Get off.
46. Decide to cross road.
47. Walk to End of Road to Traffic Light.
48. Miss Traffic Light.
49. Cross road.
50. Walk Very Long Way to bus stop.
51. Discover another traffic light, directly outside MRT, also directly leading to bus stop across the road.
52. Kick own balls (if you have no balls, your butt will do.)
53. Wish for a 7-11.
54. Spot a 7-11.
55. Enter.
56. Buy Big Gulp.
57. Walk to bus stop.
58. Miss 138.
59. Drink.
60. Eat.
61. Drink.
62. Board 169. Bus should be strangely empty.
63. Get stared at by man.
64. Wonder why.
65. Suddenly realise when bus turns into the Bus Interchange afater 5 seconds.
66. Get off Fucking Bus and swear.
67. Wonder what to do.
68. Decide on walking to Nearby Bus Stop to check if 138 or 169 goes there.
69. Walk to Nearby Bus Stop.
70. Check. Only 261 and 205 (or something) should be there.
71. Develop a stitch.
72. Walk back to interchange - preferably amid raised eyebrows of people at bus stop.
73. Drink.
74. See Line of People at Queue for 138.
75. Turn around.
76. Finish Big Gulp and throw Cup away.
77. Turn back.
78. See Line of People Gone.
79. Realise that you've missed another 138.
80. Be First in Line of the New Queue.
81. Start counting number of buses that Pass By.
82. Lose count.
83. Lose temper.
84. Sees Very Suggestive and Provocative sign - BUS 22: TAMPINES.
85. Look at watch.
86. Notice that watch had started working again.
87. Adjust time by sneakily looking at other peoples' watches.
88. Look at time - 12.45
89. See 138.
90. Sigh in Relief.
91. Board bus.
92. Keep your eyes peeled for "Green Meadows" sign.
93. Cast occasional glances at mobile tv where Weird Woman is jumping around on her bed.
94. Continue staring out the window.
95. See amazing beautiful wonderful "Green Meadows" sign.
96. Press bell like crazy.
97. Get off.
98. Run across the road bravely.
99. See Locked Gate - "Visitors must report to the guardhouse. Trespassers will be blahblahblah."
100. Scratch head.
101. Look left.
102. See A Lot Of Fence.
103. Look right.
104. See A Lot Of Fence.
105. Have the gate opened by Some Nice Guy who happened to be at the bus stop near the gate.
106. Thank the guy.
107. Walk in.
108. See A Lot Of Houses.
109. Look for Block 7.
110. Walk across Smelly Grass with Dog Poop.
111. See Block 5.
112. Walk back across Smelly Grass with Dog Poop.
113. Walk some more along pavement.
114. See Block 6.
115. Walk.
116. See Unnumbered block.
117. See outline of numeral "7" on block.
118. Look for Apartment 159.
119. Find it.
120. Ring bell.
121. Ask for Joan.
122. Get invited in by Nice Maid who Offers Drink.
123. Be informed that Joan and Co are out getting lunch.
124. Count to 5.
125. Look at watch - 1.30 pm.
126. Take out crapbook and start writing HOW TO GET TO JOAN'S HOUSE IN 126 STEPS AND 4 HOURS while waiting.

TRY IT! IT REALLY WORKS!

2005-03-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

i thought this was really sweet.

"The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn`t already know. I stood up to look around, when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned
around to find wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with smile that lit up her entire being. She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I`m 87 years old. Can I give you a hug?" I laughed and nthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!", and she gave me a giant squeeze. "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked. She jokingly replied, "I`m here to meet a rich husband, get married,
have a couple of kids..." "No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be
taking on this challenge at her age. "I always dreamed of having a college education and now I`m getting one!" she told me. After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.
Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.
At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I`ll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her 3 x 5 cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed,
she leaned into the microphone and simply said, "I`m sorry I`m so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I`ll never get my speech back in order, so let me just tell you what I know."
As we laughed, she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. * You have to laugh and find humor every day. * You`ve got to have a dream. * When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don`t even know it! There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are 19 years old and lie in bed for one full year and don`t do one productive thing, you will turn 20 years old. If I am 87 years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything, I will turn 88." "Anybody can grow OLDER. That doesn`t take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change. Have no
regrets The elderly usually don`t have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with
regrets." She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose." She
challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives. At the year`s end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all
those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over 2,000 college students attended her funeral in tribute to the
wonderful woman who taught by example that it`s never too late to be all you can possibly be."

When you finish reading this, please send this peaceful word of advice to your friends and family, they`ll really enjoy it! These words have been
passed along in loving memory of ROSE.

2005-03-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

meh

2005-03-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

it's almost twelve and we've got founder's day tomorrow. goodnight. or goodmorning. eheh.

2005-02-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

i fucking hate my dad.

i don't want to grow up.

i want my childhood back.

i want my grandma.

there are so many things in life we could have appreciated but we didn't, and when they're gone we turn back and try to look for them, but we'll never find them.

...

2005-02-27T16:22:00.000+08:00

2005-02-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

i dunno, i think i'm pmssing. depression is bad for health right. hmmyeah i think so.

the keyboard is stuck.

okay now it isn't anymore, i just airpressurized it with the airpressurecleaning thing.

my brace is making me sweat. now even my palms are sweaty. yuck. the keyboard's gonna get sticky. so's the mouse actually.

i think i dozed off during chem just now. it wasn't for lack of trying though; i struggled rather valiantly. had a chinese exam. ate m&ms throughout the whole exam. don't think i'll score too bad.

all my angbao money's gone now. there was only like $100 to start with anyway, and that isn't much, considering i had to buy iforgotwhatbutitwasreallyimportantandexpensive with it. well at first my plan was to get myself a couple of cds, maybe one or two posters, but apparently now i can't. hooray.

constantine is a kickass movie, i'm still obsessing over it. i've got the poster on my wall now. it's kinda small (came in FiRST mag, so it had to be), but when the actual size one comes out, i'm gonna buy that.

i dont care if you dont mind, i'll be there not far behind.

2005-02-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

chingay was so damned fun. i bet we got our pictures taken at least a thousand times. serious.

and thenn. its over. no more chingay.

oh well.

2005-02-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

my teeth hurt. a lot.

man do i hate braces.

thank goodness it's prefects' investiture on friday. half day. phew. then after that is founder's day rehearsal, and make up lesson for lit. and after is chingay preview. which means i'll have to skip guitar lesson, or put it on another day.

talk about hectic.

and my fuckin teeth still fuckin hurt. plus i've got a cut on my tongue. and two ulcers. hooray.

school tomorrow. long day. then elds. then chingay rehearsal. and again, thank goodness friday's a crap day.

okay.

welcome to the jungle.

2005-02-13T12:57:00.000+08:00

i swear, holidays never last.

anyway friday was the mostest busiest day i've had in a loooong while.

right. okay. i left the house at 7 in order to get to taonan by 9am. cuz the ex-taonanites decided to go crash our ex-teacher's lessons since we got holidays and they dont. sooo we met in the canteen (i had to bring my guitar cuz my guitar lesson was at 6pm). we being kelly, xin yi, brittany, ben, ronald, gary, avery, and eric. then ian the genius arrived, only he came by the back gate which was -locked-. and then he was so smart that he decided to climb over the gate. but okay at least he managed to climb over on the SECOND try. soooo then martin arrived and we went to the staff room but then the stupid thing was password protected so we crashed mrs chan's class. and huiyi caixiang junk max etc etc arrived. then we had this quiz thing where the primary school kids owned us =(

thennn we went off to watch CONSTANTINE! OMG OMG OMG! keanu reeves was H4WT. i dont see why people don't like it.

---Spoiler!!---

the part about hell having a bible was cool. and no i don't think it's satanic at all. well okay they -could- give the hellbible some other name, but it makes sense if lucifer has a bible, since jesus has one. and at the end where lucifer came up to fetch constantine down, i thought he was less good looking than i thought he would be, but hell (pun intended). anyway i thought he was rather nice. quite unsatanic. gabrielle or however you spell it was a bitch. well. yes. and holy shit constantine lived! the only thing i didn't like about the show was that THEY DIDN'T KISS. HOW CAN THEY NOT KISS. RAWR. anyway. well okay.

---End of spoiler---

okay then seven of us, huiyi xinyi brittany ben ronald eric and i went to watch max and his band jam at some studio in clarke quay. omg the drummer rocked ass. as did max. the studio was teeny though. but it was quite cosy. brittany had her ears covered all the while. i reckon she won't ever go for any major rock gigs unless she kicks that habit. well anyway their band rocked. and after that they went for dinner and we left.

then guitar lesson.

then sabrina's house. max js visa were there.

then supper! levan came. apparently he lost money from his gambling shipping thing. aww. oh well. ooh the roti john rocked! omg it was heavenly. levan stuffed a whole piece (it was kinda huge) into his mouth. sabrina got a video. priceless.

thennn we went home. yep.

omg i'm hungry...

sweet child o mine.

2005-02-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year!!!

2005-02-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

john myung bass clinic!

it's at ymca, i think. 15 bucks. voodvoond budu is dying to go, but sadly she doesn't play bass xD haha.

visa, js, max, hurwitz, huiyi, salima, sabrina and i went to watch ronin at zouk yesterday. i swear they're getting better and better. levan had this cute flag thingy, where there was fu sign. he kept waving it at the mc and it was hilarious. derryn hardly headbanged. hrmmph. and then he was doing this butt to butt thing with levan and it looked pretty wrong xD oh, them sluts. and sean wore sunglasses! couldn't see his eyes at all. wonder how the hell he sees what he's playing. and for the first time bang looks normal! as in, he's not wearing faded clothes and berms. for once xD he looks so teddy bear. and they played awesome. and like the time where ronin performed in the park, the mic for levan was way way too soft. could hardly hear him =( oh well. they sang JAF! and do what thou wilt. omg that rocked. and crazy son! and take it off! huiyi actually took off the sweater she was wearing xD salima and i debated on whether we should take our shirts off (we were wearing a tube and a half-tank under our shirts respectively). decided against it. after ronin we went and talked to the guys. visa plucked a levan hair xD

the last band was crazy. the stupid guitarist didn't pluck properly and ended up cutting his finger and spraying his guitar and hand with blood. it was DISGUSTING. we were rather nauseated. poor guy. visa was nice and asked him if he was okay. the guy said yes. bullshit. like HELLO there was blood all over the place, how could he have been okay?

and thennnn we went to mc's for dinner after doing nothing for a looooong while. huiyi, sabrina and hurwitz got cheese fries from the EVIL CRUEL DISGUSTING kfc. and thenn after "dinner" visa, max, js and huiyi went home. hurwitz, sabrina, salima and i walked around orchard for a bit. sabrina and hurwitz left. sali and i walked around some more, then salima got fried for going out without telling her dad so i went home.

AND THEN VISA AND JS AND LEVAN AND SABRINA WENT FOR SUPPER WITHOUT TELLING ME. i have yet to poke them all for that.

JUST ANOTHER, MOTHAFUCKA!

2005-02-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes.
You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time.
You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it.
Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds.

You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

2005-02-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

mosquitos.

i hate them. don't you?

don't really care about the things that they say. don't really care what happens to me.

2005-02-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

okay why the fuck do i suddenly feel this overwhelming wave of nausea.

oh my fucking- why do i have two armfuls of red bumps? voodvoond budu has them too. we suspect they're some kind of warped allergic reaction- fond (NOT) remnants of OBS. holy shit they itch like crazy. but the more we scratch the worse they'll get.

i counted 18 on my left arm. and that's only counting the part which i can see without twisting my arm.

whoa man i hope it goes away soon.

voodvoond budu and i skipped aesthetics today (hey man it's not like we knew there was aesthetics today) and went to hmv instead. oh prav told us something really cool. apparently the doggy listening to the gramaphone (in the logo) had this master who died, but the guy's voice was recorded, so the doggy's like listening to the gramaphone play His Master's Voice.

coooooool. i wonder how she found that out.

well anyway... we drifted around a little (now i realise that we never went to the poster section. hmmm. i cannot believe i forgot to check for new posters. oh well. next time then.) voodvoond budu was looking all over for the dream theatre clearance cd which we saw the other time, but she couldn't find it. then we walked around some more and she was so disturbed that she couldn't find the cd. so i looked for it with her and i found it! yay!

in the end we ended up buying two cds each. budu bought dream theatre stuff. i bought green day and gnr.

album count stands at 18. support original music.

take me down to the paradise city.

2005-01-30T13:14:00.000+08:00

hello.

once again my schoolwork is screwed. i suppose i should start soon if i don't want to die from massive teachers'-evil-glares-overdose.

why the hell do we have to do homework anyway. i don't see the need. i mean, who the hell actually bothers to look at the worksheet again after the teachers've marked them? plus some of the worksheets are just bullshit, not related to the topic at all.

oh well.

okay i've procrastinated enough, gonna start on hw now.

our time is running out.

2005-01-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

DUDE THIS IS SO ANNOYING.

oh man. fuck off. PLEASE. I AM SINGLE. YES. fuck fuck fuck. single! SINGLE!!!

AND I VERY MUCH INTEND TO STAY THAT WAY. OKAY?

clear?

man people just dont geddit sometimes.

GAHH!!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I REPEAT I AM SINGLE. NO EXCEPTIONS.

2005-01-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

OMFGWTF COMPUTER!

sigh so busy! gahh. like.

- SCHOOL, GRR.
- chingay. sigh.
- OM!!! ARGH.
- guitar <33
- elds
- third lang

ahhhhhh!!!! wtf...! no time! sigh.

nevermind. i have to go bathe.

ooh i bought this fox shirt for 10 bucks! its original price was like 29. and i bought fox jeans too! used to be 69 bucks but then it was at half price. but it's so fuckin loose! as in, i took one and tried it and it was okay, but then i saw another one which was the exact same size which looked better (or so i thought), so i was like, oh right, and got the second one without tryin it on and it turned out to be too loose. hmm.

and OMG guitar lessonnnnn so fun! whee! sha'ari has two nice guitars! which he customised like a lot so they're like really good. and he has too damned many picks. and he has a really really cute amp which is really really tiny but is really really loud. and he plays super well even though he only started like in nov 2003.

well yes. i'm so looking forward to my next lesson =) well till then i guess i better practice like crazy. and hopefully i won't maluate myself next lesson.

yep. mmhm. so long.

HEAR THE SOUND OF THE FALLIN RAIN, COMIN DOWN LIKE AN ARMAGEDDON FLAME.

2005-01-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

our obs photo! it's kinda too big to display here, so i'll paste the link. http://jupiter.walagata.com/w/drstormy/obs.jpg

it was sooooo fun!

the first day we did intros and trust falls... then we went for dinner and showered and stuff.

the second day we learnt how to kayak (in pairs).

the third day we kayaked over 13 km in more than 8 hours, cross island, in the mangrove (along the river). then got stuck in sludge/quicksandish stuff the moment we jumped out of our kayaks. a lot of us lost shoes. then we built our nice litte bashirs and cooked maggi mee.

the fourth day we trekked from camp 2 to some deserted beach thing near a quarry, where we built rafts, intending to launch them. but we couldnt, since the rafts sucked. we then sang and sang and told jokes (dirty jokes! hell yeah!) and teased our instructors and looked at the nice sky. then we went to bed, but people were keeping sentry duty in case the dogs/cats came. when it was my turn they couldn't wake me up. w00t.

the fifth day we trekked from the place back to camp 1, where we plonked ourselves down and started cleaning up and stuff. we lost two groundsheets and one cup. then we cheered for belinda and yong kang, and gave them a group hug, though nobody dared to hug yong kang (why? he's cute what!) then belinda gave us all rubber seeds to remember obs with, and we went back to mainland singapore.

yep... it's been fun, and i think nobody's going to forget obs, ever.

2005-01-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

obs.

to strive to serve and not to yield.

belinda. yong kang (he's cute. i insist he is.)

belinkang, the kayak.

trekking.

the group bag on the four camping sticks.

the bashir.

peeing in the river, the bushes...

sea snakes.

marshall and munshi, aka m&m.

loolers, blue tubs, warrer borrers.

kayak-sickness.

oh the nostalgia.

2005-01-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

my eye hurts =( i think one or two capillaries might be broken, cuz it's red =/ yuck.

well. school again. i'm online at 11 plus. how rare! whoo.

i -still- haven't finished my scrapbook. as in, i've written all i was supposed to, but haven't pasted the pictures yet. it's fuckin due on FRIDAY. wtf.

and i also don't know if my OBS application is denied or not. fucking brace. WELL. yes. and if my application is accepted, i have to go buy all the camp shit in TWO DAYS. and i'll have to bring my brace all the way to PULAU UBIN. after which i'm pretty sure i won't touch it at all. IF i get to go.

annnd. it's the fourth day of school tomorrow and we already have homework. how splendid, ja? well i just remembered. we have to do our commonwealth essay. D'OH. i don't think it's supposed to be homework though. i -think- we're supposed to do it in class.

and chinese is SOO much slacker than higher chinese. i'm missing higher chinese already :'(

flahhh. we got a chinese worksheet. and some journal entry to write. it has to be a 150 word descriptive essay about someone.

there shouldn't be anything else, i think.

yeah that's it for now.

i walk a lonely road, the only one that i have ever known.

2005-01-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

well. i cannot believe that our holidays are over. no.

tomorrow is 3rd jan, 2005, or more unfondly known as the First Day of School.

wtf.

noooooooo!!!

well, it's not like i hate school or anything, but who wouldn't prefer holidays to school? rhetorical question, don't answer that.

hurwitz, bean and i went to orchard road to hang out yesterday. well we were .supposed. to go to the night safari. but we couldn't be bothered. so we went to far east. then there was this really cool shop in this corner of far east with lots of cool ass shit. and the guy in charge of the shop was so cool too (and nice) so we nicknamed him "funky uncle" xD bean bought a GNR badge. i wanted a linkin park one, but it wasn't nice =( and anyway there was this eminem sleeve thing. I WANT IT. it's going to my wishlist. heh.

anyways. yep then we went walking around... went to lido, then to cathay. bean and hurwitz were too chicken to go try sneak into meet the fockers. d'oh. and there weren't any other shows left to watch. so we went to cathay cineleisure. same thing. so, we went to the arcade! and they played those weird streetfighter things. i tried too, but it was boring beyond belief. so sabrina and i went down to cheers to wait for hurwitz, who was still stuck to his game (cuz i made him use his last coin) heh.

and then we walked back to orchard to buy turkish ice cream from the turkish guy who kept smiling. it was strawberry flavoured! how fuckin cool is that! anyways, turkish ice cream rocks ass.

yep then we walked back to cineleisure so bean could go meet her mom for kung fu hustle. so then hurwitz and i went home and bean went to watch that.

it was so fun! w00t.

i'm slippin away...

2004-12-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

okay here are a few seconds of silence for the tsunami victims and also for those who are indirectly affected by it. fucking hell, poor people =(

okay r.i.p. mateys.

class chalet = VERY GOOD. 27 - 29 dec 04.

thankyou to the people who turned up, you all made it a success. well. as successful as a barbecue organised by us can be anyway.

well it rocked. we went and checked in on 27th (i was late. sorry ._.)

annnnd the 7 of us started playing card games like bluff. YIWEN. YOU GOOD GIRL WITH BAD INTENTIONS. CHEAT AND CHEAT AND CHEAT. AIYOHHH. anywayyy we wrote a sign that said "7 hot teenage girls inside all single" and put it on the door. thenn someone not happy asked us change to six... cuz his darling girlfriend was there...

anyways!

yes. then we didn't go to bed until like what, 3 plus 4 plus...

and thennn sabrina didn't wanna sleep so she woke up 45 minutes later. wtf.

then certain lazybums like yiwen sherry and i... woke up at 9.30 heh.

and thenn we went around doing nothing. while waiting for the rest to arrive. we split up into like what, 3 groups. one went to bean's house, one to white sands for lunch and one to x zone.

i was supposed to go meet shooli but i forgot =( -ifyou'rereadingthisshuli, I'M SORRY!!!- (I DON'T WANT TO DIE!!) but yes.

so then people started arriving. and then we tried to start the fire but it kept going out =( sooo we gave up and just used the other two fires. blah.

and then the satay was cooked and they started disappearing like crazy. i only got one xD anyway. after everyone went in to watch phua chu kang, we started cooking toast and fishballs =) and alison named us the fishball club xD

AND THENN LMFAO SABRINA WENT AND THREW T3H FUCKIN FISHBALL UP ONTO THE SECOND STOREY CORRIDOR LMFAO. and then i tried to copy her and the fishball ended up plopping back down into the drain. it somehow sqeezed through the grill with a nice PLOOP sound.

anyway. yeahh then everyone started leaving. so only nadiah, berny, sabrina, yiwen, bib, yijun, praveeta, michelle, and i were left. thenn we went to sleep quite early. like at around 4 am. lol. and woke up early too. like 7am. haha.

thennn some of us went for breakfast at goodness knows where, and yijun and sherry left for school =( yiwen went home. the rest of us did too, eventually, after checking out.

soo yeahhh.

that's about it really.

AND I COLLECTED MY GUITAR TODAY. YAYAYAYAYAYAY.

past the point of no return.

2004-12-27T13:23:00.000+08:00

i got an electric guitar!

http://www.ibanez.com/guitars/guitar.asp?model=GRX40&z=y&color=1

hehe. =)

2004-12-25T14:33:00.000+08:00

yep it's christmas again.

how time flies.

2004-12-25T01:06:00.000+08:00

i hate coming home so much.

every time i'm not at home i'll be so much happier than when i am. and if for some reason i start feeling happy, or even just stop being pissed, when i'm out, the feeling will disappear immediately after i get home and start talking to my parents.

the sad sad thing is that my parents don't mean to be so annoying at all. i know (or maybe not) that they're just trying to bring me up nicely, but they're still being assholes.

or maybe it's just my dad, but my mom's getting to be like him too. all naggy and everything.

anyway.

back to how whenever i go home all my nice happy feelings will disappear.

well before i came home i was thinking of writing a nice happy blog entry. like "oh hohoho merry christmas! we went carolling today! it was sooooo fun!..."blahblahblah... but the moment i went home it all went *poof* and all i was left with was this pathetic angsty blog entry. and on christmas day too.

my god, what a fucking lousy christmas.

merry christmas to those who find it so.

2004-12-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

hi. my dad, is a fucktard. what a fucktard.

fuck the fucking fucktard. eeeeeee. bleh.

anyways. we were in streats today.

pathetically short article.

and thennn we went swimming and it was so fucking awkward it's all your fault rachelandaruna. wtf.

and they were all supposed to wear two-pieces. but rachel was complaining bout her fats (which are OKAY. SERIOUSLY) and aruna's mom didn't let her. so she got my tankini and rachel wore her onepiece. only shauna did wear her bikini. and since aruna got my tankini i was forced to wear mine too.

wtf, i so do NOT see the point of wearing a fucking bikini since it barely covers anything and hardly feels like it's there. fuck bikinis, let's all go back to wearing full body suits.

ANYWAY.

yes. wanker was late. so we went for lunch. and then we went back and it was like 3 pm so we decided to just go. and then we met wanker there, wtf. turns out he'd been there all along .__________.

blah, what.

soooo we went and went on the slides, went in the wave pool, into the river thingy... thenn it was 6 so we went off to shower and got ready to leave. wanker went home by himself. reuben shauna and rachel went together home together. wanker went home alone. aruna and i took a cab to lido to catch phantom of the opera with other people. wtf, the fare was 11.70, and it was only from jurong east to orchard. what a fuckin ripoff. stupid driver.

so we got there, like 20 mins late. but nvm. yeahh anyway the guy wouldn't let aruna in cuz she didnt have a ticket xD but yeah i suppose thats what he was supposed to do. so we got sabrina to come out with levan's ticket and i said "oh tear wrong" but the guy got quite agitated and he was like "yeah right" so aruna was like "gahh nvm" and went home =/

sooo we went in and watched phantom of the opera. it was amazing. wow.

the phantom of the opera is there inside your mind.

2004-12-19T14:54:00.000+08:00

whoooooo! we went busking yesterday! shawn reuben isaac chengyi shaosheng yanheng aruna ryan and i. going again tomorrow. wtf, this crazy woman donated 50 bucks! i mean, that's good, yeah, but how rich is she???

anyways, we started at around 11 am. what we did was to just sit there and stare. and basically just look like funny statues. and whenever someone donates, or when we're tired, we move. and there were these donation cans in front of us, and also with the canners (there were people canning for us, as in like, they were walking around holding cans and getting people to donate. canners include matt, siewch, kalpy, lionel, stef).

the satisfaction we got when somebody donates was priceless. it was like. whooooo! yay!

but after a while we got kind of tired so we started requesting for breaks. then shawn the geisha who was standing next to me. was like "soon, soon!" but when you're standing still and doing nothing, soon doens't feel very soon. if you get what i mean. well anyways we finally got our lunch break at 1.30pm. phew. aruna and i got rice burgers from mos. she got this funny looking salmon one while i got ebi (prawn) tasted okay. not particularly fantastic. the rest went to kfc, the evil evil people.

anyways. aruna and i were back late from our lunch breaks, ahaha. so the rest started without us. and we decided that the freeze thing was so annoying that we did canning instead. only we did something different and just stood there like statues (what we were supposed to do anyway) holding the can. well it worked! people actually donated. and everytime someone donated, we bowed. well actually i bowed and aruna curtsied.

anyways, we got tired of canning so we went over to the rest. they were slacking like crazy okay. not doing anything AT ALL. except for shawn, who was sitting down and holding a can in his lap. my god he didn't move AT ALL. he didn't even blink. the only times when he moved was when someone donates. then he'd nod a little. haha, kinda like aruna and me really.

so i decided to join in. and we sat for like half an hour. didn't blink at all. then when it's almost seven, the others started counting down. 10 seconds... 5.4.3.2.1 then i was like "YES YES YES WHOOOO" scared quite a lot of people. so shawn and i unfroze and went to wash up and wipe off all the make up. and aruna and i went to ps whereas the rest went for dinner.

nothing to do at ps. so aruna went home and i went to sabrina's house.

she talked for a while on msn. and derryn said "who's elena." grrrr. then we went to 7/11 where i bought seventeen because some ronin article was in there. and thennn sabrina and i had supper with ronin! levan sean and derryn. we had a tissue prata, which levan was trying to make sabrina and i eat. to no avail =) it was damn oily anyways.

and then we talked and talked and talked about crap in general. sabrina was surprisingly quiet o.O and then somehow it was 12.15. so thenn we went home. sean and derryn walked sabrina home while levan and i shared a cab home (he paid xD)(cuz i'm broke)

got home at around like 12.30am. surprisingly i didn't get in trouble for it. good. so then i went online, talked for a while. started feeling kinda tired around 2am to i went to bed. =) and broke my earphones. i suppose thats something for the wishlist then.

we wish you a merry christmas. i'm in a christmassy mood today =)

2004-12-17T17:57:00.000+08:00

wtf...
i just woke up! and it's like 6 already!
wow!
i slept for 12 hours!

what a pig.

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2004-12-17T02:43:00.000+08:00

OMG...

sometimes, you really ARE better off not knowing certain things. but maybe if you don't know, you might do foolish things which might make you look really stupid. or maybe you'd end up feeling really pathetic. and maybe you'd be surprised how you never knew but yet all along it's been happening anyway.

wtf, this is so... weird! it's like... omg the truth man! and the truth is rarely as pretty as it seems eh. i mean like. all along you've been lied to and now you find out the truth and you're like, "wtf. riiiiight. and i never knew?" and the funny thing is that you actually believed the lies you were fed.

whoaa...

overwhelmed confused angry hurt incredulous.

omg... wtf.

go and die. you stupid liar. fucking fucker.

i'm so sick of the tension sick of the hunger sick of you acting like i owe you this

2004-12-14T03:33:00.000+08:00

ooh jealousy jealousy.

*withers* wtf. omg. i suck. i am too jealous for my own good. hmm. nvm! JEALOUSY. omg...

i can't see what they're saying. the font is black.


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2004-12-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

MY PARENTS ARE SO ANNOYING. blehhhhh.

annoying. an-noy-ing. a-nno-ying. ann-oy-ing. anno-ying. ANNOYING.

they be the most ANNOYING PEOPLE on earth. like. whoa. go. away! go away. you try to take the best of me GO AWAY! GO, YOU TRY TO TAKE THE BEST OF ME, GO AWAY! linkin park rocks.

we went blading again today. that is, darren, reuben, rachel and i. yeahh. my bearings got sand in them! wtf. they better not die, or i shall be heartbroken. they cost like what, $400! and i had to pay half of that, even though it was supposed to be my birthday present. and today was only the second time i really seriously used them.

and i think my wheels are loose, because when we were going down the underpass, i didnt wanna go down the ramp, so i took the stairs, only i jumped down. which cracked the brake, and loosened the wheels.

reuben taught me how to do the parallel turn thing. and the heel toe blading thing. yay! it's so fun learning new stuff. reuben is such a hugeass showoff. he keeps doing the parallel thing. and heel toeing. all over the place! except for the really bumpy parts of the track... and by track i mean like the path leading from kembangan mrt directly to east coast park. my god, more than half of the bloody path is tiled and bumpy. only small bits of it are gravel.

so we bladed to east coast park, then to the food centre, where we got our dinner (rachel bought a coconut! yummy! ~i've got a love-ly bunch of coconuts...! there they are all standing in a row!!~). we were supposed to go meet wanker, but he was in mcdonalds, which was like almost at the opposite end of the park. gahh. fuck, we shoulda gone to mcdonalds for dinner. but rachel didn't wanna blade all the way back, so nvm. so we finished our dinner at the food centre place. and thenn... it was dark, so we bladed back. great way of burning the fats from dinner isn't it xD

anyways, reuben and darren were talking about computer stuff all the time. boooring. blah. and rachel didn't fall that much! yay, go rachel go rachel! on the other hand, i fell A LOT more than i did the last time. i fell like what, four times today? once at the stupid rubbish bin at the fuckin food centre. that's cuz the tiles were really slippery and there was this huge gap between the tiles and the drain cover, which i tripped over. and i fell right at the feet of the fucking rubbish bin. how pleasant. second time i fell was when we were blading back to kembangan mrt, because i wasn't looking where i was going and didn't see a gap between the planks i was blading on. third time also. fourth time was when i was trying to save rachel from going into the path of a bus and she pulled me down. well neither of us died, so no complaints. ass still hurts though. plus i got really really horribly muddy and wet, because it rained. actually it never stopped drizzling, but whatever.

and after that darren went home (he took a bus.) and reuben rachel and i went to cheers to get drinks. and then we saw reuben off, and went home.

so. think today had been a really fun day. except for the annoying parents part.

even if my collarbones crush or crumble, i will never slip or stumble.

2004-12-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

[edit] -blank- =)

thanks to a lot of nice people i don't feel bad anymore =) blah. still confused though.

anyway i went out with aruna! =) so fun. we went to far east, then to watch national treasure. omg, national treasure totally rocks. it's so nice. i LOVE the ending. and it's really exciting throughout the whole length of the movie, so there's not a single moment when you're actually bored. everybody should watch it! anyways. after the movie we went back to far east. where there was this weird sony pop challenge thing where people tried to outsing other people. aruna and i wanted to join, cuz we wanted the prize (which was a sony md player). and then suddenly the dj was like "the first six people who comes onstage with a dollar coin will get a sony md player worth over 200 dollars!" so four people, including me, were like, OMG! so we all went up. and the guy was like... "okay! now there will be a sing/dance competition! the person who gets the loudest cheers will walk away with this!" *holds up sony thing* then we were like, WTF??? SHIT. and one girl dropped out. so three of us were left. then the first two went up and sang chinese songs. they weren't bad at all. so then the guy made me go up and handed me the mike. and i was like, SHIT I CAN'T SING. so he was like, oh okay, dance then. then i was like... wtf, okayyyy... then they started playing the music. so then i was like, okayy shit... so i did the buckle cheerleading dance combined with some moves that we (some friends and i) came up with once at someone's house. (sali's i think, was it?) and part of some of the moves that aruna taught me. then i was like. no more. nvm. so then the guy was like. "okay let's call them a, b, and c!" "okay who thinks a should get the prize?" "whooooo!" "and who's for b?" "whoo!" "what bout c?" "wheeeeee!" so then he was like "yay congrats!" and gave me the md player.

which i'm gonna give to my brother to save money on his christmas present.

hohoho.

2004-12-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

okay now my favourite local band is ronin =) yay! they be gooood. and levan (lead vocals) sure can scream man. whoa...

first met them at youth park, when they were performing for AFUA, some charity for the disabled... i was supposed to watch electrico with sabrina, but ronin was on before that and they were good, so i decided that i like them =) so i went and got their ep after the whole performance (i got linkin park jay z collision course, and electrico at the same time).

and levan said that they were performing again the next day, at far east plaza. so of course we went. and they were awesome! they sang take it off! i like take it off =) and i like revolution too. anyway... we got our cds signed! how cool is that! i'm so going to buy their cd when it comes out.

and anyway now i've got levan on my msn list. whoo!

time for the revolution!

2004-12-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

YES TAUFIK WON.

we went rollerblading today. reuben and darren are annoying pro. i am NOT going rollerblading with them again until i have learnt whatever bullshit they can do. or i'll get them to teach me .______.

we bladed all the way to shauna's house from kembangan mrt! although we stopped at mcdonald's on the way for a snack, cuz reuben was really hungry. darren got a cappucino mcflurry. it tasted kinda weird. like cookies n creme, but with coffee powder, lol.

anyways, we arrived at shauna's house just as her parents came home. so we went in and watched singapore idol finals with her family. her brother was so darn cute xD lol! he was sitting on reuben's lap and they were playing lame finger games in which reuben kept letting him win. but anyway. think we pissed shauna's sis off for being too noisy.

but anyway. then after the performance which ended at 9.30 we went home for the results show, which is from 10 to 11. and taufik won! yessss!

i'm going to wear my taufik shirt tomorrow. i don't care. the sylvester fans can fuck off.

okay end of post.

You Are the Individualist

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You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

2004-12-01T01:07:00.000+08:00

i love my linkin park hybrid theory cd. thank you wanker =)

2004-11-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

say hi to Captain Black Sparrow.

2004-11-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

Eminem.

Name: Marshall Bruce Mathers
Birthdate: October 17 1972

Marshall Bruce Mathers III was born in St. Joseph, Missouri on October 17 1972 to his mother Debbie Briggs-Mathers and his father Marshall Bruce Mathers II. Debbie was only 15 when Marshall was born. Not long after Marshall was born, his father packed his bags and left the family, never to be seen again. This wasn’t the end of a tough run for Marshall and his family; it was only just the beginning. Marshall got moved around to different houses and because of this he attended many schools. His mom finally settled down in a house in Detroit. Marshall was only 12 years old. The maximum time he spent at the one school was 3 months. He got bullied at every school he attended and later got back at them by dissing them publicly in his songs.

Marshall did pretty well in school considering the circumstances until he got to year 9. He failed for the third year in a row and decided that he had had enough. School just wasn’t for him, so he left to work on what he was most passionate about: rapping. He had been lip-synching to hip hop songs ever since he was 4 and if he wasn’t a comic book shop owner he had this dream to be a rapper. He started getting a name for himself when he was 17, even though he got into the rap game when he was 14. He was using the initials from his first and last names to form his rap name “M & M” which later became “Eminem” because of his race, he got rejected by people all the time, even though he was a really talented rapper. Determined to prove everyone wrong, he forced himself to go on radio shows and participate in freestyle battles. In 1995, Marshall recorded his first album titled Infinite, which only sold about 1000 copies. That same year, his high school sweet heart, now wife, Kim, gave birth to his only child, a little girl named Hailie Jade Scott.

Having nothing to lose, flat broke and in desperate need for money to support Hailie and Kim, Marsh set out to rave about his life in general where he caught ear of hip hops hard to please underground. Out of this came the Slim Shady Ep named after his alter ego. Em, down to his lest dime, participated in the 1997 Rap Olympics in LA aiming to win the $1,500 cash prize he badly needed. He battled for an hour throwing back every diss he was thrown and managed to get into the grand final. Unfortunately for Em, he lost due to a slip up. Furious that he had lost, Marshall didn’t even notice that he had been spotted by a few producers from interscope records, who got hold of his demo, Infinite. Dre eventually tracked him down, and recorded em’s second album, The Slim Shady EP then followed by The Slim shady LP, recorded in 19. Then in May 2000, Eminem worked with Dre again to record em’s third album, The Marshall Mathers LP. It featured artists such as Dre, Snoop Dogg, X-Zibit, Nate Dogg, D-12 and the beautiful Dido, who sings the chorus for “Stan”. This album debuted at number 1 on the US albums chart, and won three Grammys and was the first rap album to ever be nominated “Album Of The Year”, selling more than 8 million records in America alone. He stunned critics by performing his #1 hit single “Stan” with Elton John, shooting down all homophobic remarks.

Marshals’ album sales were skyrocketing but things weren’t going well with his wife Kim. A month after the Marshall Mathers LP was released, Em was involved in a brawl outside a Detroit club, where he allegedly pistol-whipped a man for kissing Kim. In august that same year, Em filed for divorce. In April 2001, Marsh was sentenced to 2 years probation, stemming from the weapons charge. This same year, he reconciled with Kim for his daughter, Hailies’, sake, but it only lasted for a few months, this time it was Kim who filed for divorce, in August.

2002 was a big year for Marshall. He branched out into the world of acting, filming with esteemed director Curtis Hanson. 8 mile was produced. Based on em’s own life, he played lead role of a character very much like himself, Jimmy Smith Jr. Jimmy is nicknamed “Rabbit” by his mother, Stephanie, played by Ems’ wife Kim. While filming 8 mile, he was busy during scenes making up the songs “Lose Yourself” and “8 Mile”. “Lose Yourself” was named the underdog anthem of the year.

As well as his first movie 8 Mile, Em released his 4th album, The Eminem Show. He revealed the more mature, slightly subdued side of himself. The Eminem Show fired some of his usual attacks on the likes of lead singer of Limp Bizkit, Fred Durst and Moby as well as fresh attacks on Osama Bin Laden. This one album alone had many hits, including Without Me, Cleanin Out My Closet, Sayin Goodbye to Hollywood, Sing For The Moment, Superman, and Business. He even sings on the album-on a song made especially for his daughter Hailie, the only girl in his life for whom he has respect for.

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